diagnoses

It feels like death is a reminder everywhere

the earths atmosphere taunts me
outside of my burning home, screaming, 
holding me back as I beg 
to go back in 
attempt to save anything 

And if it feels like this and you are not in pain
And if it feels like this and you are not gone
what awaits for me to feel, shortly?

I just want to eat cake and drink tea
at 4:30 on a schoolnight
with you